broken,

out of beat.

tired,

just tired.

maybe,

unwanted.

talk please,

anything.

left out,

left behind.

so lost,

where am i.

alone,

meaningless.

no life,

so i say.

the smiles,

a facade.

furtive,

ethereal.

won't care,

no longer.

tell me,

what to do.

i beg,

beseech you.

broken,

my compass.

in heart,

and in life.

heh i think i better post to prevent this patheticpoor blog from dying again.

life is so sad. see example below.

Gerald was the world'smosthandsomefantasticwonderfullovable dumbest guy on earth and well forget the example. cos Gerald has no life. so it wouldn't make much sense to draw and example of life being sorrowful from a subject which coincidentally does not possess any inkling of said matter in any amounts whatsoever.

ok another example then.

erm. oh i got it.

Jamie was the dumbest guy on earth. wait. she has no life to- *crash*ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ (all you can hear are shrieks and screams and vague annoucements of brutality) ok ok sorry. i apologise. Jamie isn't a guy. and neither does she have a li-*crashbang*ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~(all you can hear are shrieks and screams and loud, distinct, obvious, defined announcements of mortifying brutality)
-Gerald has died of blood loss
-Respawn in 15 secs

*15 secs later*

okayyyy. so that was a bit. lame. yes egan. a bit.

oh i lost my train of thought.

lol the main point of this post was to ramble about how horrible this week has been.

ah well. next time.

better enjoy the last hours of this awesome holiday before it's over and i miss it. like i miss you.

HEH it's been so long blogger.

ok i just wanted to vent my feelings.

so that other people feel fustrated too! :D ok jk only.

recently i've thinking. and thinking. and rethinking. i seem to have lost myself again. and it's really really terrifying. if you're in this thick, wet, dark and thorny forest of life, with just enough light to view your compass, and that very thing which gives you direction, gives you hope, suddenly malfunctions for no explicit reason whatsoever, stranding you in the middle of nowhere, while everyone else moves past you, unable to see, unable to help. or if you're just a specimen of billions of fish, diving deeper and deeper into life, you suddenly stop, all your momentum, your drive, they all stop. just because you start wondering where the path you take will lead you, and when you stop wondering and begin diving again you realise it's too dark to see any path whatsoever and you're lost. and that you're just another fish. and because you lack direction. you find it hard to fight against the very current that's sweeping you away, because there is no one else to help you. i don't want to care where my road leads, i don't want to care if this path is right, i just want to plunge myself into it and enjoy the ride because i know this is what i want. but at the end of the day. but is this really a secure future. is this really what i can rely on. is this really. i have so many questions. but yet. where are my answers. is this just some bad joke. i hope i can find an answer soon.

oh well. cheer up gerald. there's a mountain of work waiting to greet you with a cheery grin and hearty 'good morning!' tomorrow.

and i've done it such that i get to post it and you don't have to read it unless you have nothing better to do :D

oh i just realised 51-14=37. ok that's just pure nonsense. no not as in that logic behind the equation, rather the context of where the equation is situated.

ok then. i'll be back with physics. byebye.

by any slight slight slight chance you're reading this. can you please give me an indication. how's it going to be. for better of for worse, either will be an answer. and it's the most important answer i need right now.

hello people!

happyjoyousjubilantexuberant new year! [i think]

and also,

happy birthday to ming han!

hope you enjoyed yourself.

but you slept for 2 hrs. after we were played the game of [no]life.

it was the first time i played and i won yay!

cos i embezzled jiahui's funds after volunteering to be her treasurer with her permission. then minghan donated his assets to me. then i also took some of shaun's by silent consent. so i won with 23 million, 6 cars[5 of them GTAed], 7 houses, and many pink and blue plastic bits supposedly representing people of both gender.

heh.

ok i have just a 2 very simple requests of myself for 09.

so i hope i can fulfil them.

that's to do everything that i can today instead of tmrw,

oh and focus in every piece of crap i generate.

more expectations that i expect to have no expectation of expecting to accomplish will probably come later.

ok so i shall be a good boy and finish chinese.

noooooooooooooooooo.

don't dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

oh well.

too tired to post.

i doubt anyone comes here anyway.

heh.

bye.

oh freak.

i'll just admit it.

i have no life.

first i blow 120 plus bucks on plastic. albeit coloured plastic, with certain metal paint coated pieces as well as transparent dyed.

ok wtfbbq who am i deluding.

i just wasted a freaking 120 bucks leh.

sorry. feeling crappier than usual due to some stuff.

what did you say? oh what the some stuff does? bug me lah. noob.

heh. :/

a bit the ironic hor.

cos i'm feeling a bit the bored.

when i still have more than a bit of hmwk to do.

gah.

bye.

eragon!

ok lah i know i lag.

but i finally got my itchy hands on the bleedy book.

i couldn't stand no reading material.

discounting textbooks.

since i haven't got them.

heh.

my homework is ...

how to say.

arh i know.

undone.

dang.